Creative Project Assignment

For a day or two I was assigned to look at the way I represent myself, either bored, happy or angry, and to see if these representations are in fact accurate to how I feel. I chose to do both Wendesday through Saturday of last week. My brother ran away from home on wednesday and my parents looked to me for support, as they were scared that he was going to be hurt and that he might not be safe. I knew that he was either at a friend's house or car, and was able to ally my parents fears as to his safety. I told my girlfriend on the phone, and told her that it was ok, and that I wasn't worried, when in fact every day for the rest of the week, whenever I got a phone call I was scared that it was bad news. So in this case I realized that I was representing myself in a way inaccurate to how I actually felt in order to bring comfort to my family and so that no one would worry about me personally. I finally was the one that brought my brother home, and had to fight him to get him to agree, but I had been with him for at least three hours before he knew that I was there to take him home, and those might have been the hardest hours of my life, as I knew I had something to do, but acted all the while as if we were just going to hang out before I would let him back on his way. I each case I misrepresented myself, although at each time, in a somewhat indirect way, so during these periods I did not feel as though I was actually lying. I have yet to read St. Augustine's essay "Lying" and hope this will bring some light to my problem concerning lying.
Travis